I just received an email from our licensor not too long ago that August is a very busy month for her and that the soonest we will be licensed will be end of October, but that is not a promise.
It was very discouraging news to hear at first. I was really disappointed. I wanted to finish our Presley Ridge classes on September 8 and then have our home study sent to the state on September 10. I knew from the beginning that it might be an unrealistic goal, yet I had hope. The intake worker told me that it was possible, but that it would all depend on who our licensor was.
It was not until I was crying out to God in my shower just how unfair this whole thing is when God reminded me that He has a plan for us. I was rehearsing everything I was going to say when I made a phone call when suddenly God's peace flooded over me and He reminded me that His will, not mine, be done. I have resigned myself to that fact. I trust that His plans and timeline are greater than my own.
Reading John Bevere's book Extraordinary, I was reminded about walking into this journey because Jesus has called us.
Jesus called Peter to come out of the boat and walk on water. With his eyes upon Jesus, Peter stepped out in faith and followed the calling of Our Lord.
I recall this feeling, the feeling of walking on the edge of the water ... walking hand in hand with the Lord. Here I am again. This time I stand on the edge of the water with my husband. I am ready to answer the call and I say "here I am, Lord. Send me."
While I was hoping for a sooner timeline, I am not complaining. This is a season with my husband. We will not have these days again. While we may have more childless days ahead in between placements, that is not promised to us. So we will enjoy this season of being newly weds pre-babies, and we will rejoice when God moves mountains and allows us the opportunity to love the least of them and we have children in our home.
