"90% of the way done with the hard stuff"

Well here I am, 5 months into the process and just finally starting to document it. The thought has been ever present on my mind, but the time and commitment has been intimidating.What would I write about? What would I say? I just want to be real. I want to be open to share the amazing mission The Lord has called me to. So here it is.


For years -- almost 5 years, it has been on my heart. When I moved into a house that was "too far from the city" and about several hundred square feet too big for just the two inhabitants who were to live here, I remember standing in my entry way praising God for this beautiful place to call home and marveling at the expansiveness of it. It was in this spot when God spoke to the tender place in my heart and said, "I am going to use this house to further my kingdom." I knew instantly what that meant, but never could I have envisioned it would be happening now. I was thinking this promise would take place 10 years from then. Maybe longer. Hoping for sooner. But I tucked those words in the back of my mind and in the depth of my heart.

God works in mysterious ways. It felt like the stars aligned. I felt the heavens open and I knew it was time. I felt that whisper, that nudge ... "Go and Do!" It was time I start to inquire. Even if I hit a dead end. Even if my circumstances were not ideal. It was completely in God's hands. Never before had I felt so on the edge of something so nerve-wracking and something so beautifully amazing!! I get goosebumps just typing it now!

I kept putting one foot in front of the other. I kept surrendering to the Lord. I kept pressing into Him. About mid-September, I made a phone call and left a voice mail. I got a Voice mail back. I called back and left yet another Voice mail. Phone tag. (Who ever thought that would be fun?) Finally after about 7-14 days and countless voice-mails later, we touched base and I was set to receive a packet in the mail that week.

Talk about God doing great things! I was all gas with no brakes. I received that packet and immediately was able to get time off work to attend the mandatory meeting the 2nd Monday of October. After leaving that night, I made 5 phone calls to people whom the Spirit led me to. The application was submitted by that Thursday. There was nothing holding me back besides the dark lies of the enemy. But I clung onto the promise I had from God. "Even if," I was ALL IN until God said stop. I spoke His promise over my life. I said "even if now is not the right time, I know one day it will be."


Fast forward countless papers to sift through and read.

Fast forward the piles and piles of papers that needed signatures.

Fast Forward the doubts, fears, excitement, happiness, nerves and wondering what the world would think.

Fast forward years of journaling this in prayer ...




Fast ward to just last week when I received the news "You are about 90% of the way done with the hard stuff." 




A dream is becoming a reality. I am in AWE of the out pour of SUPPORT I have received.

Just yesterday I cam across a paper I wrote in 2010. It was a list of "things I surrender to the Lord."

It was perfect. It aligned with the dream I shared with a couple of friends on New Years Eve 2013. 

This went along with things I had been finding as I paged through my journals of years past, "Lord, you know my heart! You know my desire to do this! It is completely in Your hands ... I know you are calling me to this, but you are going to have to prepare the way for me!" 

Prepare the way He did!

Only 10% more to go "with the hard stuff." Whatever that looks like, I am prepared and ready.

My God has called me to this, and He will see me through it.


It is with great jubilation and a heart bursting with so much extra love that I am thrilled beyond belief to say, I am becoming a Foster Mom.