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What's been happening?

A lot. It has been a busy week not just in my foster care journey world, but in my world all around me.

As far as foster care goes ... The past 2 weeks have been spent making a registry on Amazon as well as at Wal-Mart. It is kind of weird ... it isn't something that I would have ever considered doing, but one of my best friends wants to throw me a "baby shower." At first I was completely turned off to the idea. I actually fought it and said no about 4 or 5 times. She had a good point, and ultimately I agreed. I would be so completely honored for friends and family alike to pull together and support me in this journey. I have learned that preparing for Children is not cheap. I am prepared, and have been, but it still doesn't mean I don't step back and go "What!?" when I see the price of some things!

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Cribs, Safety gates, monitor and a car seat. Those are my staples before my application/home study can even be considered to be submitted to the state.

My "wish list" on Amazon grows by the day; though I am pretty sure I only need ONE carseat and not the 5 or 6 that I have on that list.

I have become that mom that reads the reviews on literally EVERYTHING. While I may not be the "biological mom," I already care for the babies and love them so deeply that I want what is best for them.



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I have seen God come through in so many areas just reinforcing the idea that this is His plan for me.
The support that I have been receiving is almost more than I can take. I am just in awe. I mean, I should not be surprised, yet I am.

My family is completely on board. My friends stand by me 100%. My boss is even helping me look into day care options.

When I needed my TB skin test, I showed up at the health department and the nurse asked me if it was for school. I explained that it wasn't, but instead was because I am in the process of becoming a foster mom. God did the coolest thing; He stirred her heart and the nurse announced that the fee was going to be waived. There goes $27 towards cribs, car seats and safety gates! I walked out of there feeling an open heaven above me. I had the biggest grin on my face knowing that I am walking in God's will.

Other things along the way have just put smiles on my face and just reinforced why I am doing this.

I have become addicted to reading foster care blogs (and product reviews!!)!


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There is so much to take in on this journey. I don't just want it to rush by. I am so far into it, that I can hardly remember the feelings that went through my mind when a 2 inch stack of paper was left on my table that I needed to read through and sign back in November.


I was just going to inquire. I was just taking it one step at a time. Each and every one of those steps has ultimately led me to the here and the now.

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The Nursery is painted. I finally invested in a Co2 detector. That is as far as I have gotten on that home aspect of it.


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My heart is ready. I have done so much reading that any preconceived notion of "how amazingly wonderfully awesome" foster care is, has been put in its proper place.

Yes. There are those magical moments (I have read about them). Yepp, there are those pretty trying moments, too (I have been told about those). There is a whole variety of possibilities. I don't know what I am getting into. I know that I have been called to it and the words that my Abba keeps reminding me: "I have call you to this. I am going to bring you through it."


There will be sleepless nights ahead. There will be sick babies, and toddler tantrums. There will be messy floors, and finger print smudges on the walls. There will be many tears shed and confusion and chaos. It just comes with the territory. But these children that walk through my doors will know LOVE. They will be immersed in it. They will be shown it. They will be told it. They will be loved. They already are.