So that's what it feels like -- getting that first call

The adrenaline rush that comes with that first call.


"We have a baby. Are you interested? Call me."


I called back not even 5 minutes past the missed call.


It is a "we might need you, but we will let you know either way."


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"Whatever is in the best interested of the baby" is what I said.


Everything I have been preparing for and being prepared for is coming alive before my eyes. It can all change within a moment's notice. I have been given about 2-4 hours to prepare.


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It has only been 1 hour. My mind is going from one thought to the next. Wondering if I have a short term baby. Wondering if I have a long term baby. Wondering if I'll even have the baby at all.


Time will tell.


God is in charge. My surrender is in His hands alone.


I am ready for Him to call me out upon the waters and we can swim, sing and dance together.


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I have forms prepped for people to be cleared for central registry.




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Soup time. I need some lunch.




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And not even 2 hours after getting the "can you?" call, I am mentally preparing to pick up FD8 months old after I get off work in an hour. 


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Count down to "Mom Status" has begin.